walls

every1 has walls aroud them...these invisible barriers that are hard to get past. how hard tho, depends on each individual.

lately i've realized that my walls are relli thick and tall... especially around ppl i dun noe.............and ESPECIALLY around cute guys..... wierd huh? y cute guys?
i guess its coz im afraid i'll fall for them and get hurt? coz i noe i dun have a chance and im setting myself up for trouble?

goodnessssssss i sound so sad! hahaha
anywaez this is MY blog. im entitled to write any mindless sad crap i feel like writing.

im sorry ppl, its juz dat im in a self-pitying, 'its been over sixteen yrs and im still single?!' mood. lol~
short, fat, ugly.... wad to do? accept la... :(
so anywae... back to the walls...

i dunno y im soo afraid of getting hurt... but then again, hu isnt?
its like everytime someone dat i feel i might possibly have feelings for tries to reach out to me, sumthing makes me pull back... then ltr on, i regret it. stupid huh?

I'd like to run away From you, But if you didn't come And find me
... I would die. ~ by Shirley Bassey ~

its like i noe so many go-getters, yet i somehow cant get myself influenced by them. i guess my skin is just too thin. i have my pride.... and apparently too much of it. its getting in the way of me ever finding true love. or even love at all.

im a romantic person...i believe in the power of love. so y cant i juz dynamite these barricades away? arghhhh if onli it were this simple.

You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will
never understand what pain really is until you have lost it. ~anonymous~

id rather have loved and lost than to have nvr loved at all. but 1st i'll have to free myself from these suppressing walls.