miserable

i hate today

everytime bad things happen to me, they happen all at once.

sorry flo, but im relli down, no mood to sleepover.

depressed n a tad suicidal. (but nah, im too much of an idealist to commit suicide anyway. its juz not... ideal. lol)

its like deja vu all over again. wad can i say, i guess i dun have daya tarikan to make ppl stay. it was over b4 it even began. i juz keep making the same mistakes.

dun u juz hate it when ppl give u hope, then they pull out the rug from under u?

im so pissed at kdu and their "efficiency". our unmoderated results arent even out yet, n they set the resit date for thurs. like day after tml! dats like not even giving us time to study. so i "reasoned" wif the teacher n she finally postponed it to mon. which is not much of a difference coz they dun even noe when the results will be released. they may get the results on monday itself for all they noe! dat means dat on the day we find out we failed, we have to immediately sit for the paper again. WTH!!!
rmbr i sed i got a borderline pass (unmoderated) for criminal? my teacher tinks the moderator failed me. shyt!!! so now it means dat i have to study for the re-sit wifout knowing for sure whether i passed or failed or not.
isnt it soo blardy ridiculous to set a resit date when the moderated results havent even been released??? like how wud we noe whether we have to study for it or not??? wad if we study our asses off then in the end we dun have to sit for it coz we passed. (!!!)
im tinking of making a petition so that they make the date for the resit at least a week away from the date that the moderated results are released. at least dat will properly give us some time to study. i mean, if we failed the 1st time, wad makes them tink dat sitting for the exam wifout giving us ample time to prepare will pass us???

##$%^*($*$$&*#&#^!!!!!!!

males have relli good timing. i mean like "really good". their motto shud be: i'll kick u when ure down! yea! -_-"

dis is a jumbled up post.
jumbled up juz the way my feelings are.

im relli sick of the line "lost my feelings".

i need a good cry. but there's no shoulder to cry on.

my life is soo shitty now. juz kill me already.

i juz wanna be happy. i guess dats too much to ask for.

ok, maybe im over-reacting. but im upset. i have the right to over-react -for awhile at least. *sobs*

john is silly, but nice. he owes me another ice cream. LOL~
at the rate im going, he'll soon be broke.

i have absolutely NO passion for my course. but im determined to finish wad i started. unless i have to retake a whole year. its juz not worth it.

but wad course shud i do??? i relli dunno...

so much for starting anew... *rolls eyes*

my confidence is shattered. its always getting shattered n i need to patch it up again. serves me right for my own stupidity. a minor reason dat i camwhore is to boost my confidence. pathetic right? i noe.

i shall go wallow in self-pity now. *wallows*