burning bridges

i have kept so many bridges i should have burnt.

i've changed so much over the years. the high school me would have never hesitated to make bold moves at the risk of offending people. unfortunately, the university me cannot afford such rashness and have shied away from countless conflicts. coward.

in case u havent guessed, current mood: emo

i wish i were more devil-may-care about my relationships with people, but the sick truth is that i do care. i care hell alot.

dont get me wrong. im not trying to say im all sugar and spice, because im not. what im trying to say is that i wish i could be firmer, more decisive.

bah. enough emo-ness.

let me tell u about the incident in the library toilet.

a few days ago, i was studying in the uni library. then i had to go to the loo. so instead of leaving the library and having to use my student card to gain entry into the library again, i decided to use the library toilet which is very small and quite dodgy. a girl entered the toilet before i did an took a stall. i took the other stall next to it (there are only 2 stalls). when i was just about done, i heard a very loud "ka-chak". u know the kind that camera phones use?

so i immediately checked under the stall to see if there was any camera there and there was none, then i looked up and there was none there either. i felt mildly disturbed. only mildly disturbed because as far as i knew, there were only the 2 of us girls in the loo and i doubt that the other girl would be perverted enough to wanna take a picture of another girl peeing. so i assumed that she was just camwhoring. but still thats a little wierd because girls normally camwhore with the mirrors at the sinks and not inside toilet cubicles...

on another note, my laptop is becoming even more screwed up. now, not only do i have no desktop, but i cant even open mozilla. so i have to use IE. and me no likey IE *pouts*

yes la, i know i should have reformatted it eons ago, but do you have any idea how much it costs to do laptop related stuff here? i might as well buy a new laptop with that money! im actually quite relieved that my laptop managed to last through my assignment period. *phew!*

thats all for now, im off to a bbq! =p