dark prince

i just watched 'dark prince'. absolutely brilliant!

it was released in 2000. but i cant remember ever hearing about it before. hmm...

i only found it because i was looking for a horror film to watch, and one link led to another.

but dont get the wrong idea, this is NOT a horror film. it is more like a historic retelling of the tale of how Dracula came about.

watching this movie, i sympathize with Dracula and resent the church. but thats the way it is in history isnt it? the hands of the church are stained with blood.
(but as always, i shall now steer clear of the topic of religion. too sensitive an issue!)

it is a MUST WATCH!

here is the link

but im not sure if you will be able to stream it if you're not in the UK. ah yes, another joy of being in the UK. video streaming!

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girls, here's a beauty tip!

u know those tubes of lipgloss that we use, towards the end, we can always see loads of lipgloss in the tube, but we just cant reach it?

so u throw it away and get a new one?

dont!

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hmm... my housemates have been very quiet recently. it is so out of character that im becoming curious...

the truth about...

on hindsight, i thought that the photos in my previous post were really too scary, so i minimized them to also minimize the puke effect.

johhny is so mean, say until like i have no life like that. i really dont la, and i did say that i have no social life, but u dont have to be so frank mar! *sobs* =p

btw, those pictures were meant to be taken in the most unflattering poses and light. i wanted to see how i would look at my absolute worst. and the result is horrendous indeed.

oh ya, jo, this is not the 1st time i played with eyeliner what. i remember doing this in subang with u and charles. summore YOU were the one who drew on my face! wtf

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ok, now serious.

read 'The truth about Malaysia'.

it really saddens me that a country can be in a state where people just stop caring. where corruption is everywhere you turn. where the judiciary is as good as dead. where any one who dares to try to speak out, or make a change, is disposed of. where instead of the democracy i have learnt : "by the people, FOR the people", the Goverment operates solely for it own benefit. where people have lived in fear for so long, that they even forget that they are living in fear because fear has become the norm for them.

beauty is beyond skin deep

yea, keep the title in mind as u scroll through the following pictures =p

i realize posting up super ugly pictures of oneself is akin to social suicide, but i figured heck, why not? my social life died several months ago anyway -_-"

and, (yes there is an 'and'!) i believe my readers arent that shallow anyway :D
*sentence inserted to reverse psycho the readers into not being shallow. wtf*

you see right... one day after i came home from i-forgot-what-outing, i was wondering what i would look like if i did the super thick black eyeliner thing that alot of asians with single eyelids tend to do.

so i took up my 'barry m super soft eye crayon' (which i bought awhile back for this purpose but never dared to actually put to use) and started experimenting...

then since i was experimenting, i wondered what i would look like with super black eyebags...


... and black lip liner


yes, arent i just the prettiest little thing?


'pan cute' summore. WTF

no la, actually i didnt draw on the eye bags. it was what happened after i drew a thick line of eyeliner onto my eyelid, then blinked very hard. the colour transferred to my under eye.

please remind me to never try out the thick eyeliner look again lest this happens in public. *digs a hole*


rocker... or is it punk??

sad rocker. wtf


after this i coloured my entire lips black

emo


where are my band members!

looking down so that u can appreciate the thickness of my eyeliner.
3/4 of this much eyeshadow disappears every time i open my eyes. fml

even my fillings are black -_-"


can u see the mild black freckles i dotted onto my cheeks?

can u imagine this as a normal picture without the black markings on my face?

arabian nights


suicidal goth. wtf


oki! (mole)

*licks lips evilly* do u feel the fear??


bulbous nose to the max


then i decided that the mild black freckles were not obvious enough.


blackhead attack


as my reflection got more and more ridiculous, i was laughing hysterically to myself in the bathroom.


*pretends that i look normal*

have i imprinted my hideous visage into your minds yet? =p

those were the makeup-gone-very-wrong cases.

now i feel obliged to remind you that i do not always look like that so that u will return to my blog, and my blog stats wont fall, and i will one day finally be able to cashout.

so here is a makeup-gone-right photo.



now dont blame me for your nightmares! =p

dream dream dreeaaammm~~~

i grew up on songs like this.

still love them! :D

anyway, what i really wanted to talk about are my dreams.
i've been having pretty vivid dreams recently. normally, im not much of a dreamer and in the event that i do dream, the dream usually eludes me when i wake up. but the details of these recent dreams have stayed in my mind for longer than usual.

1st dream:
it occurred on the 18th. i still remember because i had my IELTS exam that day and it was a very cold day. so that night when i dreamed, i dreamt that it was snowing again and we were all playing in the snow. that dream was damn real lor, even though the snow had stopped over 2 months ago, when i woke up i still thought that it was snowing again.

2nd dream:
this dream was quite long. it involved me, a guy i used to date (lets call him S), and my cousin.
in this dream, S and i were friends and his older brother wanted to pikat my cousin. so we had to tag along to all the excursions he planned for her. note that in reality S has no older brother. one of the things his brother planned, was dinner in a famous teahouse that was covered in semak samun and located near a beach. dont ask me why a famous teahouse was covered in semak samun. wtf
and i remember feeling very happy because i had always wanted to eat at that teahouse.
in the end i dont know what happened to his brother and my cousin, but S and i kissed. then it was like the whole point of the dream was so that we would kiss. so when we kissed, the dream ended. WTF
summore i cant remember what S looks like in my dream. i only knew it was S because my dream told me so :S

3rd dream:
i was in the room my best friend and her sister rented (except that it looked nothing like the room my best friend and her sister rented in reality). it was huge and consisted of 2 rooms separated by a sliding door. one room had a queen sized bed which was where they slept, and the other room had 2 unoccupied twin sized beds and was linked to the toilet. the reason i was in their room was because i was moving in and they were moving out. so we were sitting around chatting. and we did that for my whole dream. wtf
im so boring that even my dreams are boring
but the scenarios in each dream were so vividly real!

im writing them down so that next time when i read this, i can remind myself of these dreams.

ok la, back to admin law. gotta hand it in early tomorrow morning!

i NEED to make you happy

"i love you so much. i want to make you happy, i NEED to make you happy."

.... then he proposes.

~From: 'He's just not that into you'~

*melts*

ok la, it may not seem THAT heart melting, but if you consider the fact that he is the i'd-rather-die-than-get-married kinda guy, then... *MELT*

side note: i am soo relieved that Ming is still in!!! what are u people in Malaysia doing??? vote vote vote!!

there's a freedom in my heart

there's a freedom in my heart,
because i know they will never part,
undeniably there is a tinge of grief,
a sorrow beyond belief,
there is a thorn within me,
i know its name to be envy,
nevertheless this revelation is something i would bless,
its all part of the process,
growing wings,
no longer running in rings,
i will get by,
and all will witness me fly,
though i know not where i am going,
at least i will be soaring.

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sappy poem aside, my housemates are back! they came back from their easter break yesterday. damn.

there goes my peace and quiet!

my peace and quiet is also disturbed by an unlikely source.

birds!
they start chirping at about 2.30am.

its so annoying! and its difficult to fall asleep with their incessant chirping.

dont get me wrong, i do like the sound of birds chirping... IN THE MORNING. when i am AWAKE or WAKING UP. not when im trying to SLEEP!

to kill a mocking bird indeed!

maasra

i finished my book today. i really meant to be reading up on admin law instead, but i just couldnt concentrate. so i knew i just had to finish the book before i could start anything else. *sigh* it has always been like that with me.

can u believe i used to get into fights with my friends in primary school just because of my reading habits?? haha... too much of a bookworm lah.

but its been a long time since i immersed myself in a good book and ahh... it was good~~

but oh noes, only 3 days left to finish my admin!

i know i've said this for about a week now, but i really have to get cracking!

ps: unless u read the 'veil of a thousand tears', u will have no idea what the title means.

pps: ok la, the title means: veil of a thousand tears. wtf

subway day

i am utterly exhausted!

1st, lemme tell u why i didnt blog yesterday. i had my ielts test at 9am, but i had to wake up at 6am to catch the 7am bus to the city centre, then catch another bus to summer town. and the night before, i barely slept (not due to nerves, but i havent been able to slip easily to sleep recently. very frustrating i tell u.) 4 hours.

so after the test, i had lunch then bought some groceries and headed home. once i got home at about 5.30pm i washed up, read a bit (the ebay book) and crashed on my bed at 7.30pm. hence no blogging.

today, i woke up at 6am and had a heavy breakfast before meeting up with my subway colleagues and also those who worked on other subway branches... to... ... ... paintball!!!

yay! i was so excited! it was my 1st time playing paintball :D

the venue was somewhere outside Reading, about 2 hours from Oxford. the ride had so many twists and turns, i was rather carsick by the time we reached :S

however, that soon passed in the excitement of preparing for "battle" =p

we had to wear a protective vest, a jumpsuit and a helmet (which stunk!). then we were divided into 2 teams. red and blue. there were another 2 teams, brown and green. but blue and red played against each other and likewise for brown and green.

our groups then joined the other blues and reds. we played about 5 rounds, with breaks and lunch in between.

1st game: both teams start at opposing ends of the field and try to kill off all their enemies. if they manage to kill off the other team within the time limit, they get 10 points. but if the teams exceed the time limit, even if one team has all its members and the other team has only one member left, it will be considered a draw.

2nd game: a totem head is placed in the middle of a bridge and both teams begin on opposing ends of the field. the aim is to steal the totem and place it at your oponents base. after the game, the teams switched bases and played again.

3rd game: this one was called graveyard. im not sure why though. the teams are divided into attackers and defenders. the aim of this game is to kill the defendant's president (who has to wear a bright orange vest) within the time limit. my stupid colleague volunteered me to be the president. therefore it was the most boring game for me. i had to sit in the ditch (and fearfully watch a centipede) where i was safe and let the others play. wtf
i couldnt join them because i wasnt even supposed to be seen by the enemy, because once i was shot, my whole team would lose. chis! most boring 15 minutes ever.
luckily my team won and when we switched roles with the other team, i was able to play. then i was so excited, that i became the 1st one killed. WTF

4th game: there are 4 buildings in the field and the aim of the game is to gain control of all 4 buildings within the time limit. my team won both rounds. muahaha~
and i did not get shot at all because i never left the 1st house i entered, which also happened to be the house furthest from the enemy. wtf!

5th game: there is a building in the centre of the field. one team has it as their base and they have to defend it from the other team which will attempt to place a mock dynamite in it. the game ends either once the dynamite is placed (no throwing) in the building (which technically can only happen after you've killed everyone in the building) or when it reaches the time limit. in this game, it rocks to be the attacker because its the only game that we get to respawn. however, it sucks to be the defender because u get cornered up in the building and they attack you from all sides and u cant respawn. its like waiting to be killed and hope that u manage to survive till the times up. after a game, we reverse roles.


my only complaint was that paint pellets were damn expensive (6.99pounds for 100 pellets), so we only got very few pellets each. if we wanted more, we had to pay for them ourselves. in the end, i couldnt tahan being ammo-less, so i shared with a colleague to buy a packet of pellets.

after the games had ended, the winning team was declared and certificates given to the members. so i now have a paintballing certificate. LOL.

we then headed to Reading to chill in the Oracle for awhile (a shopping centre) and have ice-cream.

on the way home, we stopped by a field of yellow flowers to take pictures. it was soooo amazing and beautiful! exactly like those postcard pictures! i dont have the pictures with me now, but i'll post them up with the paintball pictures when i get them :D

so here i am now, freshly showered and bone weary. imma fill my tummy then hit the sack. nights!

its xmas... not really =p

i received another call this morning... make a wild guess about what it was about =p

i had 3 more packages!

a pink skirt (knee-length very ladylike =p), the book i mentioned in an earlier post (which i am now 200+ pages through) and a very gorgeous knee-length miss sixty denim trench coat (which i just hand washed and hope it will dry in time for me to wear tomorrow)!

the reception guy totally recognizes me and my bleary morning face now. he even joked that "its like xmas!"
in my just-threw-on-a-coat-and-ran-downstairs state, all i could manage was a little laugh. no great comeback. darn. my eyes were barely open through my crust of u-know-what covering them. so much for friendly asians.

i still have about 3 packages to receive, so he'll be seeing more of me =p

i have to wake up at 7am tomorrow (omg, please kill me now) for my ielts exam. so i guess i'll be off to bed now. nights!

smooth talker

this morning i was awoken by my room phone ringing at about 10am. normally it would make me grumpy, but i somehow knew that the call would be about my packages from ebay, so i joyfully sprang up to answer the call. and it was indeed my packages!

so i went to the reception to collect them. there were about 3 packages. so i happily put them on my table then went to sleep again.

i woke at about 2pm and got myself a banana, then switched on my laptop before i started opening my packages while checking my emails.

my mum had emailed me, so i called her and we started to skype. that was when i received the 2nd call. it was more packages!!!

this time there were about 5! i was so so happy! it felt like christmas! no better, because these were all handpicked myself and i dont usually receive many presents for xmas -if at all. *big wide grin*

so i ecstatically, opened my packages in front of my family while blocking out my sisters running commentary about "why do u need that?!" "that skirt is too short!" and etc and shared my enthusiasm with them although i have a feeling they were all just layan-ing me.

then i had my IELTS speaking test today and i think it went great :D

after that caroline and i went and had chinese food for dinner. on my way home, i received a call from anson to go over to his place as he had free cakes and pastries from the bakery he works at. so after going home to change into home clothes, i went to his place and a group of us spent the rest of the night pigging out and playing cards.

i had an awesome day! how was yours?