clubbing

i miss dancing... damn. haha~ ballet ppl who r relli deprived of dancing start wanting to go clubbing. which is ironic coz ballet is so disciplined n clubbing is wild. but its the only place where we can dance n also be wif others who dance too. it doesnt matter if the styles r diff.
i'll admit it here n now dat as a ballet dancer, i love the way my body moves at times. theres sth juz hypnotic in the way bodies can move n sway.
with ballet, its all about elongation, every move we make is meant to display our bodies in its best light. in ballet, displaying our body in its best light means making all our limbs look longer n more graceful; fingers, legs, arms n even our necks are gracefully protrayed to look elongated. thus ballet dancers become vain n when dancing always wanna show our best, most beautiful moves dat can attract ppls attention. dis is true especially for performing dancers.
i sound so narcissistic. lol~ but i do like a lil attention when im dancing, i guess it becomes kind of an expectation when 1 is used to seeing a crowd of ppl watching when we perform on stage. but im more into being part of the crowd when clubbing rather than the spotlight dancer. hehe~ i guess i dun have dat kind of confidence. i can do it on stage, but off it, no way. part of the reason is coz when one is on stage, its all about the dance ure performing. u feel good about the dance n u wan the audience to feel the positive vibes. but when clubbing, its no longer a mask to put on, its a time to juz enjoy dancing.
i sound like such a pro at clubbing huh? truth is, i've nvr relli clubbed b4. i mean i've been to taylors' parties n stuff where they have a dj, strobe lights, the works, but dat cant be considered clubbing... it was in the mph for goodness sake. lol... then there was the post-prom dancing, but dat was also under taylors. i have been to 'the office' in padungan b4 but we mostly drank n hung about. there wasnt much of a dance floor. and i guess dats about it. haha... almost went to mc3 but was too drunk. but i have got a feel of clubbing from the parties n now i relli crave n wanna go clubbing. i wanna dance my heart out. n if u tink im gonna dnce ballet when clubbing, u muz be deranged. =p

dun worry darling, i wont go clubbing in kl. i'll try to wait till u come back n bring me k? ;)