eruption

when i get angry, i just erupt....i say and do things dat i dun mean and i usually regret it ltr....
when i do dat i guess the ppl roud me get scared. but i juz wanna let u guys noe, juz let me be...i'll be fine in a while. dun take wad i say to heart. its my way of venting my anger. i let it all out so dat it'll nvr bother me again. sometimes when no1 is there 4 me to take it out on, i cry. bitter tears of anger.....but im ok after dat. wierd.. haha
i nvr let myself be down for to long. i have dis habit of pushing unpleasant things to the back of my mind and not thinkin about it. it keeps me happy most of the time, but deep down, i noe the problems are still there. but i also noe dat if i keep stressing about my problems the way some of my frens do, im bound to go crazy real soon!(not dat im not already half-way there..) when i tell myself dat im not gonna think about sth, i usually succeed in doin just dat.(dis is very unfortunate esp when i tell myself not to think about my studying when i wanna read.)
enuf about my anger. actually today was a good day. the only bad part was dinner time.....but nvm. lets not think about dat. lol
stella came over to my house today. she helped me pack for the forum and we tokked about stuff.
i felt rather distant from her when our classes were separated in f4, but after tokkin to her and catching up on alota stuff lately, i noe dat she'll always be the one i can tok anything wif....(stella, wanna bet??) lol~
i made sushi in the morn n we had dat 4 lunch. when she went back i packed sum 4 her too. since noone else in my house appreciates my food....chisssss aniwaez she also gave me sum kong pia b4 she left. it was yummy!
tomolo im gonna go to the leo forum.... i relli relli hope its fun...*sigh*
aniwaez, its late. gtg catch some zzz....