oh boy..

y is it dat its always problematic guys dat r attracted to me??
y cant nice decent guys dat r on good terms wif their family be attracted to me??
my ex was a mess... now dis new so called admirer is like dat too... i mean like wad? do i emit sum wierdo vibe or sth?? im not like them at all! im a family lover! we have nth in common! cant they see dat?? n they're vain n narcissictic....vanity i understand, but going over the top, i dont.
i cant help comparing dis new guy to my ex... i mean talk about coincidence!

i met ex thru a close fren at sch
i met new thru a close fren in college

ex is vain
new is vain

ex liked me 1st
new likes me

had no interest in ex in the beginning
have no interest in new now

ex hates his family
new hates his family

ex is not generally liked by ppl
new is not generally liked by ppl

ex has nth in common wif me
new has nth in common wif me

ex met me once n was attracted already
new met me only once so far

sed i wud nvr be wif ex
saying i'll nvr be wif new

liked the attention from ex
liking the attention from new

ex was playboy
pretty sure new is playboy too

ex imposes his personality on others
new imposes his personality on others

fren dat i met ex thru din approve of ex
fren dat i met new thru doesnt approve of new

ex moved fast
new moving fast

ex stubborn
new stubborn

me: so dead

i relli hope the same thing doesnt happen again!
i mean i was so sure i wasnt gonna be wif ex, then.. i dunno wad happened! he's so totally not my type! i guess it was the 1st time i received such attention b4 n i was very flattered n touched... so i went on wif it...now i tink new is gonna make me feel touched too. dats like so not fair la! its like i relent easily n dats my weak point n they both so totally attack my weak point relentlessly.
i dun wan dis to be a repeat of last time but i feel too weak to resist the niceness of the attention.
u noe dat all girls love positive attention? im no exception there! hahah n i cant resist smiling back or leading the person on to prolong the attention...i noe its bad, i told ex dat i din wanna lead him on (b4 we got together) but he asked if we cud cont. sms-ing n i gave in...blarghhh talk about low self-control! lol i soo noe its gonna happen again. i hope i can be strong dis time n resist coz i'll only get hurt in the end.
man... i sound so perasan! lol! no la, no ego-ism intended. i mean im not even like sum ppl who r so hot n every1 tinks so n so many guys r after. im juz a regular girl dat sumhow only seems to attract problematic guys. *sigh* im so so screwed.