pretense

r u relli so dumb? or do u juz pretend to be dumb? i tot we were over pretending long ago. or do u juz wanna save face? if so, whose? urs? mine? its juz so clear, yet u pretend u dunno anything.
lately, the ans i hate most is "i dunno" especially for things dat r relli obvious. its like i totally understand how the guy in prestige feels when he asked the other guy "wad knot did u tie?" and he was answered wif "i dunno" i mean, how cud u not noe??? its juz the denial within urself n refusal to answer a question. its not like im asking a complicated question even!

y r u so blur??? i wrote it down clearly n yet u ignore it. wad? dont u understand english? even after i told u specifically wad to read! the question arises how do i broach dis subject wif u? or do i juz let it pass? well, its certainly not the 1st time!

hmmm... ppl who read my blog muz tink dat im a relli grouchy person. lolz~ truth is, i rant it out on my blog n then im not so pissed anymore. it works for me! =p n if ure wondering, the rant above was directed at no singular person but rather at certain incidents. :)

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wad i wrote above makes me wonder... y do ppl pretend? imagine wad the world wud be like if every1 was frank.

"ur new haircut looks nasty"

"yes dear, ur bum does look fat"

"if u relli muz noe, i do love ur sister more than i love u" (parent)

"that was the most horrible evening in my life" (a date)

"i hated the present u gave me"

"yes, ure fat"

not exactly the kindest kinda world is it? but then again, ppl do say dat sumtimes, 'to be kind, one muz first be cruel'. so i guess kindness is rather subjective. like how do u tell a whiny fren dat she whines too much? or do u juz let it be? but as a true fren, dun u feel dat u shud tell her so dat she can improve herself? i mean its better to tell her now b4 its too late rite??? but who's to judge?

then again, there's the common scenario where a girl likes a guy (n vice versa) n everyone noes dat. even the guy himself. but the guy juz pretends not to noe coz he doesnt wanna spoil the frenship. n the poor girl drives herself crazy wondering "to tell or not to tell" when in actual fact, the guy already noes it. he's juz either not wanting to spoil the frenship or he's enjoying torturing the girl n feels pride dat she has a crush on him or maybe he's trying to 'naik harga'. so many possibilities...

and ofcoz there's the usual pretense of flattery. wad do u do when a fren comes down from the stage after her performance n feels totally crappy about it? most of us wud say stuff like "aww... its wasnt dat bad" or "nvm, u'll do better nxt time" n if ure feeling relli generous, "i tot dat was relli good!" (yea rite u did!) how many of us wud actually say "yea, dat relli sucked"? i mean eventho u fren is saying how crappy they did, but unless ure relli dense, u can feel them imploring u to comfort them. so wad do u do as a fren? be nice? or deliver harsh love?

wad happens when ur fren juz bought a relli nasty looking dress n feels soo happy wif it then asks for ur opinion? do u wanna tell her ur honest opinion n see her face fall? or do u lie n say "its relli..ummm...nice"?

or how bout when ure feeling like hell but u pretend everything is ok. anyone who says dat they've nvr done dat b4 is obviously a liar. y do we pretend dat everything is ok anyway? y dun we juz bawl our eyes out n scream "no. everything is NOT ok!" whoops, there's ur answer rite there! =p eventho we may feel like crap, we still wanna preserve our "cool" image. lolz~~ afterall, we all do have our pride. :)

then if "pretending" is so essential in our daily life, y do ppl hate "pretenders"? maybe its because we want to much to believe a lie dat we feel so betrayed when the person lets the pretense slip. i noe its a confusing sentence, but get wad i mean?

hrmmm... i always wanted to study psychology. lolz!!! ok la peeps, dats the end of my extremely long n still incomplete-but-will-probably-nvr-be-completed musing on pretense. :) relieved much? =p

haihhhhhh... im actually supposed to be working on my criminal assignment essay. but here i am, typing a ridiculously long n pointless essay on a random topic dat happened to be on my mind. im such a wonderful student. =p

ps: sumtimes its not the things dat u do dat hurt ppl most, but rather, the things that u DONT do.

then again, it cud be the things dat u unconsciously do. (or r ur actions RELLI unconscious?)