bored n alone

like my song???
im soo soo addicted to it. hehe~
*wonders how long it'll take me n every1 else to get sick of dis song*
=p

see ron, i purposely put it on top so dat u can pause it 1st thing. :D
actually its coz its too long to fit into the side bar =p

today was very much like yesterday : BORING & LONELY
-_-"

altho usually about 30 (give or take) ppl r on9 on my msn list, i dun usually chat to many of them. n the ppl dat i like chatting to, tend to be off9. :(
so i usually lack human communication. n dat can drive a social person like me, insane. the feeling of loneliness is juz such an intense feeling sometimes.
(my roomie goes back to seremban on weekends)
when i feel lonely, i get restless, which intensifies the feeling. but when im lonely, i dunno who to contact. coz i dun like my girlfrens being worried about me as they so often already are. so my best bet is to contact a guy. but which guy? who wud care enuf to be there for me? dilemma dilemmas... *sigh*

i have a boring life contrary to wad most tink. maybe its coz of the pics on my blog, dat most ppl r lead to believe dat i have a relli happening life. the truth is, if every1 else totted a cam around n snaps as many camwhoring pics as i do, their life, however mundane, wud begin to look happening too.

a normal weekday: go to class, maybe follow classmates out to lunch, go home after classes n stay cooped in my room for the rest of the day. usually, i dun even go out for dinner coz i cook my own dinners.

a normal weekend: stay cooped in room for whole day, occasionally emerging to fill kettle or cook. -_-"

so happening hor?

bahhh...

how i wish there was someone on the other end of my phone whom i cud msg to whenever i felt lonely.

i've been having extremely vivid dreams lately, if only they were real.