murphy's law

Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way.

and thats exactly what happened.

this is so personal that i considered not mentioning this at all on my blog. but as usual, im not good at suppressing myself, and so i turn to my major outlet of expressment (there's no such word, but who cares), my blog.

where do i begin?

the turmoil of emotions in me are driving me mad. tell me, how can a person feel angry, disappointed, outraged, shocked, bewildered, sorrowful, apologetic, pity, fear, abandoned, appalled, ashamed, humiliated, disrespected, betrayed, broken-hearted, dejected, desolate, devastated, disillusioned, exasperated, helpless, hurt, insecure, irritated, overwhelmed, regretful, worthless, shaken, vulnerable, hurt and forgiving at the same time? the scope of human emotion never ceases to amaze.

everything just results in confusion.

we had a tiff, and just when i thought that the night couldnt get any worse, it did. if any of u that were there that night happen to read my blog, here is my sincere apology for what happened. it was utterly unexpected and uncalled for. and thank you so much to those who supported me. u are such sweethearts. u could have blamed everything on me, but instead u cared for me. and for that im eternally grateful.

and the ironic thing is that both sides just wanted to protect me. unfortunately one side was extremely deluded.

i think i've said enough. actually, i think i've said too much.

dont ask me what happened, i dont want to keep revisiting hell.